Bleary-eyed in darkness
stumbling to the bathroom
tripping over dog’s paws
and articles of clothing strewn on the floor
Sleep interrupted
by bright lights overhead
as I sit now wide awake on the toilet
Feeling pain and pressure in my abdomen
wincing as little feet kick ribs and
marveling at the few layers
between me and him
Grunting now
limbs strewn across the couch
I lie here
staring at the ceiling
as a gray ball of fur nestles
alongside my rapidly growing belly
I wonder what I will do
at 2 am
several hours before the world wakes up
And I wonder how he can be here
And you cannot
I draw a flower on my belly
and think of you
life giving and taking
Each of us –
ephemeral wisps of energy
and love and joy and laughter
I make room for you inside me, too
I make room for grief
I make room for the confusion
Of you falling asleep
having never woken up
And me waking up
Unable to fall asleep
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